im born to be a ugly duckling with extra noob big glasses,skinny+dark skin color make me look like dry wood,short n corny hair style,retarded brain n learning speed..and definately im from a poor family as well,so everythng that i wish to get,i have to work hard on my own unlike other fren of mine,js coquetry to their parent o any1 who loved them so much.. mayb no 1 wil believe all mentioned above by look at wat i hv right nw,bt if ask those friend who knw me since young time,they are the 1 who saw my biggest changes.
i guess the changes should be recorded from my 17th age onwards.this is the year when im studying form 5,2004.
~ i start to show the basic girl's natural: like beauty,so i had my 1st slightly stylish n expensive(at least for me,it is)hair cut,i couldnt make 2 much different on hair cz of the strict rules in my secondary school.
~ i nvr wear spec out from hse anymore since i exposed to greatest creation:contact lens,ha..
~ ofcz,i get my motorbike n car license at the same year as well where the 1st step of my independent life begin.
god knws how hard to work n save money to get those thing especially i js work as a part timer in secondary school.
in my 18th age,lower six,
~ i gt my1st camera,thz to my dearest mum,cz she had sponsor part of the cost :)
~ decide to gv the biggest gift for my convenient, i gt my own car (actually its belongs to bank cz is by installment method :p), althought is js a 2nd hand little kancil,anyhw, no1 can imagine how much convenient it has brought to me ^o^ bt ever since that,it means the money i gt to spend on my dear car should nt b under budgeting..
while in 19th age,upper six
~ this is the year where my 1st love come into my life,experience the sweet,sour and ofcz bitter as it ends in the same year also.
~ it gv me more motivation to change myself,therefore had a more modernise hair cut..js realise how much hair style can affect ur appearance eventhough from standing far.
~ had yoga program for 3 months while pursueing better n more elegance life style, short but fun lessons.
~ and do eyebrow embroidery to make myself look energetic all the time.
20th age life
~ the basic computer skill started late at this age when i work as account clerk n inventory clerk onli i learned excel n UBS sysytem.
~ again i enhance my hair style by doing perming.
~ this is a year that 1st half year work to get experience and support my living expenses in the 1st half year while waiting for stpm result.
~ then work like robot since quater of the year onwards,work a few jobs at the same time,morning 9-6 office job,night time part time in studio o korean restaurant,at least 4 days in a week is spending more than 18hrs on working,weekend day job would b at the same bakery where i work as part time since form4.every n everythng js because i realise,the best way to change my family status is changing mine by enter university.so i told myself,i hv to save enough money to enter,therefore i js work all the time i have,to the max..luckily that mind support me gone through that tough time for omost a year.
~ so glad that i got a good accountant superior who became a good fren for me after all :)
21th age life
~ success to make myself enter university n ofcz thx to those ppl who had helped n encourage me to achieve.
~ chose my uni life in kampar,perak.. cz i wish to expand my foot print step by step,if nt because of study here,guess i wont hv the chance to get familiar with perak.this is the 1st time i drive out from penang, ofcz is the most far place that i go by my own.
~ so,i always wish to go some significant places in perak so that i wont wasted my study time here..i went cameron highland,gua tempurung,ipoh,pulau pangkor,sungkai..
~ also,this is the year where i start to speak,write in english and listen to english songs, realli thanks god for giving me the chance of surrounding by english ed friends so that i could learn from them, the best way to push up my poor n pity english level in short period.
~ this is the year where i fall in love 2nd time,i can say that,this time fallen even deeper than the 1st time,...and again,its end in the same year.
~ not onli realise i cant give up myself,bt i even work harder to make my life more complete in the sadness of breaking up,again i work office job in day time n part time job in night,for the sake of utilise all my time and energy 2 avoid unnecessary thinking...yea..the result n gain is a great satisfaction ^o^
~ again i got a elder to b good friend who was my boss in this 3 months office job, who always believes in my ability, who willing to point out my mistakes and teach me a lot knowledges as well as the right working and living attitudesa,..me,who r just a stranger for them...
~ that working place js like a warm hse where oways open for me, eliminates my worries of would be unemploy in future... wat a great god's gift to me.
22th age of life
~ i got my 1st branded stuff by my own: Guess gold color sneaker!!omg,i realli love it so much.a shoe that i can wear anytime,nomatter attending classes,outing or even go party,i js feel so comfortable in it :)
~ yea..after hard work in las year 3 months semester break,i bought myself a laptop, toshiba, the best gadget assistant in life :)
~ then i got the 1st good watch in life: my bday present from my dearest frens: Casio, a normal bt elegance watch,can match every mode of my attire =)
~ i completed my dream of having own room. i decorated my hostel with salted crystal lamp,grown in the dark n lamp berger aroma.the arrangements in room was ammended til so comfortable until my hsemate also love it so much,yea... ^^
~ my foot print expanded to kl when i chose to have my industrial training there. kl,used to be the state where i scared the most because of its prosperous while im js a kampung girl who scared to get lost in this big big world, i get to overcome that after a few months life in pj,although i stil oways get lost due to my bad direction sense haha..
~ not onli get to expanded the place i familiar with but also exposed to different working environment: work as event coordinater and promoter,which i got the pay few times higher than my hard work in previous life; work as market anaylist in frost n sullivan, a realli big and good company and i hv learned a lot skills especially in doing research which benefits my academy the most...
~ get a bunch of loveable colleagues, church friends and promoter friends who oways brighten up my day,im really lucky :)
~ a gain that canot be missed out,my 1st own branded purse, Bonia, the purse that i hv the feeling of 'that's you,babe..' in the 1st glance,haha..(the 1st branded 1 was presented by 2nd ex-boyfriend,is a Guess white purse,bt car window broken in an outing and ofcz,the purse been stolen..mayb this is a msg telling me the fade in my life is,i need to work hard n got it by my own effort..)
~ from my friend's word,i know im different after this kl exposure ofcz the most obvious is the outfit,as the style and mindset have changed.
~ then work like robot since quater of the year onwards,work a few jobs at the same time,morning 9-6 office job,night time part time in studio o korean restaurant,at least 4 days in a week is spending more than 18hrs on working,weekend day job would b at the same bakery where i work as part time since form4.every n everythng js because i realise,the best way to change my family status is changing mine by enter university.so i told myself,i hv to save enough money to enter,therefore i js work all the time i have,to the max..luckily that mind support me gone through that tough time for omost a year.
~ so glad that i got a good accountant superior who became a good fren for me after all :)
21th age life
~ success to make myself enter university n ofcz thx to those ppl who had helped n encourage me to achieve.
~ chose my uni life in kampar,perak.. cz i wish to expand my foot print step by step,if nt because of study here,guess i wont hv the chance to get familiar with perak.this is the 1st time i drive out from penang, ofcz is the most far place that i go by my own.
~ so,i always wish to go some significant places in perak so that i wont wasted my study time here..i went cameron highland,gua tempurung,ipoh,pulau pangkor,sungkai..
~ also,this is the year where i start to speak,write in english and listen to english songs, realli thanks god for giving me the chance of surrounding by english ed friends so that i could learn from them, the best way to push up my poor n pity english level in short period.
~ this is the year where i fall in love 2nd time,i can say that,this time fallen even deeper than the 1st time,...and again,its end in the same year.
~ not onli realise i cant give up myself,bt i even work harder to make my life more complete in the sadness of breaking up,again i work office job in day time n part time job in night,for the sake of utilise all my time and energy 2 avoid unnecessary thinking...yea..the result n gain is a great satisfaction ^o^
~ again i got a elder to b good friend who was my boss in this 3 months office job, who always believes in my ability, who willing to point out my mistakes and teach me a lot knowledges as well as the right working and living attitudesa,..me,who r just a stranger for them...
~ that working place js like a warm hse where oways open for me, eliminates my worries of would be unemploy in future... wat a great god's gift to me.
22th age of life
~ i got my 1st branded stuff by my own: Guess gold color sneaker!!omg,i realli love it so much.a shoe that i can wear anytime,nomatter attending classes,outing or even go party,i js feel so comfortable in it :)
~ yea..after hard work in las year 3 months semester break,i bought myself a laptop, toshiba, the best gadget assistant in life :)
~ then i got the 1st good watch in life: my bday present from my dearest frens: Casio, a normal bt elegance watch,can match every mode of my attire =)
~ i completed my dream of having own room. i decorated my hostel with salted crystal lamp,grown in the dark n lamp berger aroma.the arrangements in room was ammended til so comfortable until my hsemate also love it so much,yea... ^^
~ my foot print expanded to kl when i chose to have my industrial training there. kl,used to be the state where i scared the most because of its prosperous while im js a kampung girl who scared to get lost in this big big world, i get to overcome that after a few months life in pj,although i stil oways get lost due to my bad direction sense haha..
~ not onli get to expanded the place i familiar with but also exposed to different working environment: work as event coordinater and promoter,which i got the pay few times higher than my hard work in previous life; work as market anaylist in frost n sullivan, a realli big and good company and i hv learned a lot skills especially in doing research which benefits my academy the most...
~ get a bunch of loveable colleagues, church friends and promoter friends who oways brighten up my day,im really lucky :)
~ a gain that canot be missed out,my 1st own branded purse, Bonia, the purse that i hv the feeling of 'that's you,babe..' in the 1st glance,haha..(the 1st branded 1 was presented by 2nd ex-boyfriend,is a Guess white purse,bt car window broken in an outing and ofcz,the purse been stolen..mayb this is a msg telling me the fade in my life is,i need to work hard n got it by my own effort..)
~ from my friend's word,i know im different after this kl exposure ofcz the most obvious is the outfit,as the style and mindset have changed.
Thats really a happy things when every time a shocked reactions shown from deepest eye of friends that do not meet after quite some times..at least i knw,again,i have changed a lot..n its motivating me to do more n more in life..ofcz is by adding valueable change which will benefit my life but nt the change that wil spoil my life record :)
wat should i set as target for nex year?nothing much,i js wish 2 complete my honour cert,upgrade my knowledge n skills so that i deserve to n formally become a degreeholder.ohya..thought of a small bday gift for myself, to consolate my hard work on trying to make my life slightly fantastic and capture down my youthful time..on the progress of searchng the right studio to have a memorial studio picture album,yippy.. ^^
the rest of my target of achivement,should leave til after graduate..
maybe try out stewardess job js for the sake of travel n expose to a lot n a lot countries,then learn of online trading(money make money method,then my every minutes is a income,hehe..)the rest of the las working life might b abiding of normal life to work in airport or own bussiness.. its still a far dream,but everythng start from thought only posible to make the dream come true in one day :)
anyway, my 22th age hvn come to the end yet,there is a small greedy sound from inner of my heart asking me to expand my exposure by visit other countries in end of the year which invited be b the companion of my previous accountant superior(im actually the 1 suggested her for a battery recharge trip,hehe..),my 1st target would b thailand,cz its the cheapest,ha.. but, im having dillema..should i complete this dream 1st or should save up the money for nex year expenses as the tuition fees for nex year expected to be very very high while most likely ptptn wil not enough to cover.. but who knws wats gonna happened 2moro or nex sec?nt to mention nex year.. this 2 different lifes attitude's sounds is headache-ing me most of the time..
wat should i set as target for nex year?nothing much,i js wish 2 complete my honour cert,upgrade my knowledge n skills so that i deserve to n formally become a degreeholder.ohya..thought of a small bday gift for myself, to consolate my hard work on trying to make my life slightly fantastic and capture down my youthful time..on the progress of searchng the right studio to have a memorial studio picture album,yippy.. ^^
the rest of my target of achivement,should leave til after graduate..
maybe try out stewardess job js for the sake of travel n expose to a lot n a lot countries,then learn of online trading(money make money method,then my every minutes is a income,hehe..)the rest of the las working life might b abiding of normal life to work in airport or own bussiness.. its still a far dream,but everythng start from thought only posible to make the dream come true in one day :)
anyway, my 22th age hvn come to the end yet,there is a small greedy sound from inner of my heart asking me to expand my exposure by visit other countries in end of the year which invited be b the companion of my previous accountant superior(im actually the 1 suggested her for a battery recharge trip,hehe..),my 1st target would b thailand,cz its the cheapest,ha.. but, im having dillema..should i complete this dream 1st or should save up the money for nex year expenses as the tuition fees for nex year expected to be very very high while most likely ptptn wil not enough to cover.. but who knws wats gonna happened 2moro or nex sec?nt to mention nex year.. this 2 different lifes attitude's sounds is headache-ing me most of the time..
all written above may not be as great as or as fantastic as other people,but its jus simply meaningful to me while i knw my life is in the upgrading progress. it is my own life record,which i may telling in grand or grand grand child 1 day in future :p by writing this record,it reminds me not to leave blank in any page of life.
~canot let tomorrow regret on my decision made yesterday~
~canot let tomorrow regret on my decision made yesterday~
hey friend, i understand your hardship and i pity you at the same time..feeling the same to myself. i am not much better than you..i also have to go through a lot. same here..both of us have a supportive family at our back. lets not giving up and defeat the evil. show them we're the winner. boo ~ sama mereka. YEA!!
ReplyDeleteDon't Give Up... You have made it so far, for sure you can continue until end....
ReplyDeleteColeen,
ReplyDeleteI am very encouraged. You did well and I am so very sure that you will be very successful in the future.
There's so much to learn from you I believe. I am really a spoiled child without much life experiences. Life had been easy for me.
I think there is a purpose to our lives. Continue living well and being successful .
thz every1... ") especially MJ,realli shocked to c ur comment here =)
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